fuck you

I know it really shouldn't matter and that I shouldn't let it define me but I miss my hair. I have no confidence what so ever in my appearance anymore. I don't feel beautiful, I don't feel sexy or feminine at all. I fell like an ugly duck, and very awkward. Every single time I look in the mirror I want to cry. It doesn't matter how many people tell me how beautiful I am or how good my hair looks or anything, I still feel hideous. It frustrates me that something so stupid can make me feel this way. Why can't I just be happy with it and realize that never again in my life will my hair look like this so I might as well enjoy it. I just can't. I hate it so much and there's absolutely nothing I can do to fix it for at least another six months. Ugh, why am I such a girl? I just want to feel beautiful again.

I just don't know what to do. You lied straight to my face. This makes no sense to me what so ever.