Sometimes you just don't know. You lose sight of everything you we're working towards, everything that was important to you. Sometimes you just get lost. At this moment in time I feel lost. Where am I? Can someone please help me get out of here?

stand up or, sit down

My problem is that I can never demand things for myself & when I try, they back fire on me. I just let everyone walk all over me.

Darling

What is wrong with me? I think to much, I drive myself crazy with my own thoughts. I wish I could just turn my brain off and enjoy just being. I just want to be able to have a good day with you. Why do we always hate each other? I just want a day of smiles and laughs and cuddles. What's happening to us? I miss you, I miss the care free me. I'm dying for your attention and affection.

So confused, so torn.

I try so hard for what? You never appreciate me.

Have you ever really thought about how many people you've interacted with, without using any words. Simple glances & gestures. Have you ever wonder what someone you've exchanged a glance with is thinking? I never really thought about this till today when I was buying gas. A guy just kept looking at me. We made eye contact multiple times. It felt like in those looks was something more, something I can't explain. Maybe a want, a need, a desire. Like words should of been coming out of his mouth but weren't. Like some how we knew each other but had never seen one another before.

My mind is a cluster fuck right now. I'm not happy, I just want to be happy.