People are most likely going to tell you what you want to hear, this is where I have a problem with most people. I don't want you to tell me the things I want to hear, I want you to tell me the truth. I don't give a damn if you think I can't handle it, or if you don't want to hurt my feelings. I would rather hurt than be mislead. This is me asking for it. For once it would be so refreshing to just meet someone who wasn't so full of shit. I'm over the games & the lies. I'm not the type of person to sit back and lie through my teeth; if you ask me something you're getting an honest response. I believe this is why I can;t open up to anyone. How am I supposed to be honest and real when no one else seems to be?

How did this whole situation even happen? Is this real life? Uh oh, here we go again...

Sometimes you just don't know. You lose sight of everything you we're working towards, everything that was important to you. Sometimes you just get lost. At this moment in time I feel lost. Where am I? Can someone please help me get out of here?

stand up or, sit down

My problem is that I can never demand things for myself & when I try, they back fire on me. I just let everyone walk all over me.

Darling

What is wrong with me? I think to much, I drive myself crazy with my own thoughts. I wish I could just turn my brain off and enjoy just being. I just want to be able to have a good day with you. Why do we always hate each other? I just want a day of smiles and laughs and cuddles. What's happening to us? I miss you, I miss the care free me. I'm dying for your attention and affection.

So confused, so torn.

I try so hard for what? You never appreciate me.