Of course I would start falling for someone else then, take a step back and have you flood my mind.

better off

Minor lapse in judgment, hope you can understand.

I have this problem with pushing people away. Sometimes I just get in to moods where I don't want to be around anyone, or talk to anyone. I just want to be alone, but when I'm alone I can't stand it. I miss you. I'm always thinking about you and I hate myself for that. After everything I went through with you, and after all the things you said to me & did to me. Some nights you're all I want and it fucking kills me. I think of all the good times and it makes me sad, but then I think of all the bad things and it makes me even sadder. We were so toxic. I wish we could have let each other in, I wish we didn't run from each other. I loved you, but you didn't understand what that meant.

I want to be able to tell you, but I'm too scared. This kills me, why do things have to be so complicated? Why do I have emotions?

I'm scared to lose you so I'm just going to keep my mouth shut.

Blue Jeans

Blue jeans, white shirt Walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn It was like, James Dean, for sure You're so fresh to death and sick as ca-cancer You were sorta punk rock, I grew up on hip hop But you fit me better than my favourite sweater, and I know That love is mean, and love hurts But I still remember that day we met in december, oh baby I will love you 'til the end of time I would wait a million years Promise you'll remember that you're mine Baby can you see through the tears Love you more Than those bitches before Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember I will love you 'til the end of time Big dreams, gangster Said you had to leave to start your life over I was like, “No please, stay here, We don't need no money we can make it all work,” But he headed out on sunday, said he'd come home monday I stayed up waitin', anticipatin', and pacin' But he was chasing paper "Caught up in the game" ‒ that was the last I heard I will love you 'til the end of time I would wait a million years Promise you'll remember that you're mine Baby can you see through the tears Love you more Than those bitches before Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember I will love you 'til the end of time You went out every night And baby that's alright I told you that no matter what you did I'd be by your side Cause Imma ride or die Whether you fail or fly Well shit at least you tried. But when you walked out that door, a piece of me died I told you I wanted more-but that's not what I had in mind I just want it like before We were dancing all night Then they took you away-stole you out of my life You just need to remember.... I will love you 'til the end of time I would wait a million years Promise you'll remember that you're mine Baby can you see through the tears Love you more Than those bitches before Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember I will love you 'til the end of time