I am just beyond frustrated. Is this ever going to work out? I just want to be happy and focus on my career and live my life without having to worry about pissing someone off. I miss being young and carefree.

I miss my friends

You still have no faith in me. After everything I've accomplished... it hurts.

I really wish I could spend more time with my Nephews. Every time I see them, they instantly brighten my day. Every little thing is so magical to them and they're always smiling and laughing. No worries no problems, just love and laughter. I wish I could go back to being a kid and seeing life through their innocent eyes.

Can I just for once in my life have one day were I can fully enjoy my accomplishments and be proud of myself without having someone put me down? Is this really too much to ask for? You always make me feel like shit about myself and make me feel like the things I've done aren't good enough. I know I shouldn't feel that way but, it always hurts when the people who matter the most to you don't acknowledge you're triumphs. I just wanted one day, to be congratulated and showered in compliments. You ruined it for me. You constantly break my heart.

I just don't know anymore. Everything I thought I wanted might not be all I really want anymore.