What's wrong with me? After everything? All the lies & the fucking around... Who am I? What am I thinking?

All I want to do is focus on myself and being happy. I just want to have fun and be on my own. I don't have time or feel the need to put effort in to things that don't interest me. You can call me a bitch all you want but I don't care. I want to do what I want to. I'm sick of trying to please other people.

I feel good. Things are finally starting to be okay. I'm getting where I want to be and I'm proving myself. I'm working hard to get where I want. Sometimes I want to give up, but I know all this hard work and extra time & hours I put in with be worth it in the end. I want this & I'm going to get it.

I wish you never lied about all those things. I wish you didn't do all those things you said you never would.

I'm like a ticking time bomb, one of these days I'm just going to exploded. Fuck all the rules & fuck all the inhibitions. I'm getting what I want & nothing is going to stop me.